Things can happend.
In any time whatever u dont expect can arrive to ur life (sound like publicity but is true).
Old memories and old friends almost forgoten arrive yesterday and for a few hours was like the time stop in the exactly moment that they leave me.
We talk, for hours and hours we talk. Since a year we just seen each other in four or three ocasions and the email and the messenger was the best way to mantein a virtual contact that get weeker everyday.
(I heat english)
Yesterday i notice why im their friend. Specially for one of them. I didnt know how much i touch him. I start to think that our friendship was gone, but Dan tell me why we cant let it appart.
That two people was the most important in my life for two years (almost three). Now i notice that they are important, but we dont need each other as we needed that time. Yesterday i notice that they are constructinc them life, and making plans.
That both guys talk about married. That was shocking. In a few years i dont know if we will be what we use to be. I always say that get marry is not a joke, but they start to think about that because the people in their life is important to them.
(is too hard english my dear)
Im thinking about me. And notice that i dont have any plan yet. They leave me and my planes was broken. Im working and living the day. But i still dont have any plan for me.
I know that work is important so i work.
I know that get money is important so i get money.
I know that have a house is important so i dream about it.
But still dont have any plan.
Is almost a joke. I use to write about me and my dreams once a year. But everytime i try to do it again i cant see me. I feel lost.
Maybe is the time.
Maybe is the weather.
Maybe is because i dont really want to do anything.
Im going to try it again. Is refreashing have them for a week like that days. But i have a life. And a boyfriend who i lov so much. But im scare to do plans based in other people cause when they leave me i will be hurt again::.
